Showing posts with label Meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Meditation. Show all posts

Thursday, February 22, 2018

Moving beyond the limitations of labels, identity and other self imposed boundaries

I remember some years ago going on my first long holiday from work, to see the outback. The scenery was breathtaking, the lack of phone calls peaceful and the chance to sleep in bliss. Yet for the first few weeks I was at a loss. Who was I? I had identified with my job too much. I'd tied my self worth to it. What was my worth beyond the job? Who was I if not that identity? Fortunately I'd taken a few months off so I had time to disengage and disengage I did. When I came back to my job it no longer had the same hold on me. Sure I was still concerned with helping people who rang me in the job I administered but I had started to look beyond. I now knew I was something else than what I did.

We spend our childhood and teenage years trying to define ourselves. As we leave home we have to find out who we are as adults. What is our purpose? Now we've left home who else will love and care for us? I remember my frustration in my twenties, wondering what I was supposed to do in this life as nothing quite fit.

One day I had to wait by the side of the road with our trailer while my partner went the short way back home for a spare tire. I had no books, no one to talk to, no tv or radio to listen to. So I sat and watched the birds flitting in the trees, the breeze as it moved the grass, the color of the sky. Time dissolved and a peace I had never known merged with me. It was a first awakening of a sort, a preliminary one anyway.

This sense of boundlessness is what can be found when we let our selves go, lose ourselves in the moment of the infinite now.  There are plenty of how to instructions around the internet but really it is as simple as that. Letting go all effort, just being.

Despite the simplicity of that, once you've mastered it, it's not as easy for those still immersed in who they believe they are. One of the most famous approaches to unraveling the self is the "Who am I technique." You start by saying something like your name, where you were born, what you do. You can make up quite a long string of things like "I am Jane Citizen from Idaho, I'm a typist and I like to paint." See how that feels. Now repeat your version of this but drop off the last bit. ""I am Jane Citizen from Idaho, I'm a typist". Does that feel any different? Keep repeating but each time dropping off more of the sentence until you are just left with "I am". How does that feel? This is the "Who am I method developed by Sri Ramana Maharishi. His answer to the question was a very yogic one "Who Am I?’ I am pure Awareness. This Awareness is by its very nature Being-Consciousness-Bliss (Sat-Chit-Ananda)."

Sometimes how we define ourselves can be a very long sentence indeed but if we let go all the labels what we are left with is infinite potential. See:
Yet even dealing with identities is quite an abstract conceptual exercise. And we come back to the act of simply letting go: 

Boundless View, Self Arising Meditation, Flexible Behavior

Sunday, January 14, 2018

A resource list for foundation Tibetan spiritual support practices (particularly Bön ) - for solitary practitioners

A lot of people these days are keen on Tibetan meditation and mindfulness practices but not everyone is aware of the underpinning skills and techniques that can support those practices.

For those of us who live in remote locations or lack the wherewithal to go on overseas retreats or even pay for expensive online courses there is a wealth of information on the web these days to get you started. It wasn't always that way. There was a time when, unless you could travel to Tibet or India and convince a teacher to take you on, you had little hope of learning anything other than about the importance of the Four Immeasurables: Compassion, Joy, Love and Equanimity. These days there is plenty of information out there but sometimes you need to piece it together. Ligmincha learning gives a good run down of their teaching topics which you can find at http://www.ligmincha.org/index.php/en/programs/overviews-of-teaching-topics.html but there are some pretty advanced topics covered there.

So what are the basics? This is where I give my disclaimer that I really am just a solitary and somewhat eclectic practitioner. So I can't tell you what will work best for you. If you dive into these practices you do so at your own risk. Listen to your inner wisdom and/or find instruction. That said here is what I find useful and strive to do every day.

Starting your day with connection and intention

  • Any daily life activity can be turned into the path by doing it with mindfulness, compassion, joy, love and equanimity. I see joy as including gratitude. I see equanimity as encompassing egalitarian principles and non-judgement, not grasping onto somethings as better while running away from what we don't like. The principle of equanimity also encompasses non-interference, as much as possible leaving things as they are. I remember my life partner and I once had an old Toyota Corolla we'd bought for a couple of hundred dollars and proceeded to run it up and down the road to work for many years. It had regular basic maintenance but we didn't fix things unless they were broken or close to breaking. Fix one thing and you might put more pressure on something else. It was about maintaining the balance of the system that was the car. The lesson here being not to poke and prod at life unnecessarily.

  • Gratitude: My favorite way to get my intentions straight for the day is to wander into the warmth of an early morning shower, giving thanks to the five elements. The water of course, its warmth, breath, the stable earth beneath my feet and the space all around me. Giving thanks to those spiritual and guardian beings I relate to. Once warm and dry I throw on some light loose clothing to prepare for practice. It's time for my morning practice.

  • Prostration: The very notion of prostration can conjure up all sorts of nasty connotations for those of us in the west who distrust the establishment and authority figures but you're not dealing with governments, dictators or slave owners here. Prostration is a time to visualize all that supports and protects you, your fellow practitioners (even those you may never meet), those who give you guidance on the path and any beings you see protecting you. Prostration is about acknowledging and honoring that support. I also see it akin to bringing down the light to earth as we might do in a ritual of magic. Geshe Yongdong gives a very good overview . You can also watch  Tsem Tulku Rinpoche teaches PROSTRATION (1 of 2) and adapt it to whatever tradition you are following, replacing the chant with the one you use. For a yidam I personally choose to visualize Shenlar Okar as I can easily equate the limitless white light he represents to Christ consciousness.  He is the "subtle body of limitless form" version of Tonpa Shenrab Miwoche, the founder of Bon. Prostrations are similar in some ways to the Indian "salute to the sun" exercise so you can expect similar health benefits from the exercise. Try to work out where your head is going to be when you meet the ground and have a nice bit of carpet or a cushion ready. The custom seems to be doing a minimum of three.

  • Dedication: By dedicating your practice to the benefit of all beings you clearly state your intention. You're not just taking time to do your morning ritual for your own health and spiritual progress but also for the people around you and indeed the whole cosmos. Feels more important now doesn't it. This dedication can be alternatively done or repeated at the end of your morning's practice.

Tsa Lung exercises and Tibetan Yoga. See:

Meditation - opening the heart. Inner Refuge. Dzogchen (pronounced Tsoh-chen)

There are any amount of tutorials and guided meditations on youtube. Just search for "Tenzin Wangyal guided meditation". Check out also the Openheart.fi youtube channel or the Openheart.fi website for some extra  practical tips. The profound talks channel has a lot as well by the likes of Alan Watts, Adyashanti and Sadhguru. These last three all follow what I call the non-dual tradition which deals with a view of the world that transcends all polarities and is best understood, not with the mind but with heart, through direct experience such as meditation.


Openheart.fi introduction to Dzogchen meditation:

Also check out his awakening and the two part formula:

Tummo as a tool to support transformation

There is not a lot of freely available information about this practice but a number of traditions have published the following:

  • Clear Light of Bliss: Tantiric meditation manual by Geshe Kelsang Gyatso gives an explanation of the stages of meditation of inner fire.
  • The Bliss of Inner Fire: Heart Practice of the Six Yogas of Naropa by Lama Yeshe gives a broader overview
  • The Power of Tummo - Free Video Teaching by Tulku Lobsang (in English and Spanish) This is not a how to video but it does give a very good overview of why you would practice it. Worth watching.

It's best to tread lightly into this practice as it can unblock emotional energies stuck in your chakras and channels and you really don't want all that stuff coming out at once. This is one practice you could really get yourself in trouble with so respect it, take it nice and slow and precise. Listen to your body and your inner guru.

Start with mastering vase breathing. See  Chumba Lama Tibetan Breathing Yoga. Then add the visualization. To get a better understanding of some of the physical mechanics behind Tummo or indeed an alternative route to raising kundalini (for those who don't want to undertake Tummo without the appropriate training) check out

Asanas, Mudras & Bandhas - Awakening Ecstatic Kundalini (AYP Enlightenment Series Book 4)


The way of meditation website lists a lot of the benefits that come from this practice. While the main reason we practice Tummo is for inner happiness one of the more noticeable physical benefits is that it improves your digestion. It also improves your ability to tolerate the cold which, with something akin to a Maunder Minimum nearly upon us (as at the start of 2018), might be a really good thing.

While you can practice Tummo in any upright seated position I have found that cross-legged or even better, the lotus position works best. If you thought, like me, that your not capable of getting into the lotus position check out: Develop flexibility for Yoga (Padmaasan - Lotus Posture) w/ Eng Subs. After doing this for a few weeks I could finally do it - at age 57. Okay one side works better than the other but I'm getting better the more I do it.

Mantras


At the other end of the day: Getting ready for bed and the practice of dream and sleep yoga. Whatever you're working on or thinking about just before bed can pop up in your dreams. Sometimes this can be a useful thing. You may dream the solution to a problem. But if we wish to use our dreams as another place to do spiritual practice it might pay to read or watch something inspiring or contemplative before bed. Imagine your thoughts are like baggage you take into your dream world, what are you packing? Of course a good way to clear the day is to practice the nine purification breaths, make an intention or dedication for our sleep. Listening to a guided meditation is a good way to transition from the day. Then practice your dream and sleep yoga:


The cyber sangha

You might be on your own but there are, these days, a wealth of forums, social media and online courses that can provide support.

Other media


If I've missed any useful resources, or indeed support practices, please leave a comment.


Sunday, May 22, 2016

Enlightenment, lets do it together

In my lucid dreaming time this morning it came to me sharp and clear that enlightenment is not something we have to do alone. It is not a competition. It is not a goal to be achieved to add to one's imagined self worth. It's something we can do together. Sure there are solitary practitioners out there who might get there on their own through extreme focus and discipline. But for the rest of us it's a damned site easier if we connect, at least on a psychic or imagined level to all those out there seeking awakening from the limits of their self. This connection can be across space time to all those teachers, wise people and their students, is anywhere in the universe, anywhere now, past or future and with any sentient species. We're all encouraging and helping each other. We're waking up together. Because we are together, one and connected.

It was a full moon last night. A huge one. In May. I looked that up on Google this morning and noticed it is wesak. The Buddha's full moon. Other great teachers seem to have been allotted a full moon, eg Christ. Anyway, I suspect I was really feeling the moon's energies in the early hours this morning.

Friday, January 29, 2016

Meditation as a brain training

Brain games are popular in the digital world but what about analog, non-digital ways of training the brain and shaping it in ways we might desire?

Every time we practice something for real OR by doing it in our mind our brain assigns more neural connections to help us with that activity. It's like walking a path. Every time you walk that path it gets a little more permanent and a little wider. Driving, swimming, playing an instrument, speaking a foreign language etc all become better and easier with consistent regular practice. The brain says "aha! this person is serious about this thing. It's not just some one time event. I'll do some rewiring behind the scenes to make it easier."

We once believed that the brain only assisted babies and children this way but these days we know about neuroplasticity. Even adults can nudge their brains into rewiring. This has been especially good news for stroke sufferers, giving hope where there was little before.

So aside from doing things like playing a musical instrument what else could we get the brain to help us with:

  • quelling the constant chatter in our mind as it chews over past events and consider for the future. This is useful when it helps us learn from the past or plan for the future. It's not so good when it bogs us in a quagmire of regret and fears.
  • enhancing our skills to understand others, to put ourselves in their shoes, to empathize with their struggles and their pain as well as their achievements and their joy. Building our emotional intelligence may increase compassion and reduce jealousy. Making the world a better place for not just us but also those who might otherwise suffer or incur our discontent.
  • distancing ourselves from our inclinations to rage when that rage cannot improve our circumstances. 
  • mindfully participating in life with full awareness, being in the moment without judging our circumstances. Mindfulness has been shown to reduce stress, give a richer experience of life, provide emotional perspective etc but more than anything it cures of that great plague that's afflicting post-modern humanity, multitasking. Burnt your lunch lately? I just did. Try to split yourself between two tasks such as writing and cooking and it is likely only one will be done well, the one you are focusing on.
  • understanding the nature of our very mind, the illusion of the constructed self (our habits and the labels we have given ourselves), even enlightenment.
I was reading The emotional life of the brain. The author, Richard Davidson, mentioned how they had gotten the help of a seasoned meditator to help with their initial experiments. They got him to switch between different meditation states to see what might show on their equipment. It occurred to me that this could be the equivalent of a kind of meditation gym. Yoga practitioners practice asanas, different physical poses. Why not also use different meditational asanas.

The Tibetans have gifted us with a number of these mental postures: 
  • Calm meditation, being with the breath. This is thought to calm the default mode network of the brain which is involved in mental chatter.
  • Concentration meditation. Focusing one's attention on an object, real or imagined.
  • Reflection on the flimsy nature of what we call self (our collection of beliefs, habits and self labels), our branding.
  • Devotion, such as to a teacher or someone who inspires us
  • Compassion (Tonglen)
  • Mindfulness, being in the moment
  • Resting in stillness, silence and spaciousness aka Dzogchen (variously pronounced dzochen or tsochen)
To these you can add practices inspired by recent neuroscience which shows that while we feel with the right side of the brain we give meaning to our emotions with the left. Unfortunately many of us can get trapped in right-brained states such as depression. By using facial experiences, visualizations and vocalizations we can reconnect with our analytical left side of the brain an gain some perspective on what we are feeling.

So here's my simple meditation gym - I may refine it over time.

  • Get yourself in a comfortable position. Seated usually helps with staying awake as do things like keeping your eyes very slightly open.
  • Take a few deep breaths to oxygenate the body. If you know any pranayama or the Tibetan nine breaths do that.
  • Take a moment to mentally catalog the sensations in your body. Any tension, tingling, agitation or relaxation. Don't do anything with it. Just observe it. Imagine you are your own scientist. You are going to observe and note any changes your meditation practice causes in you. You may wish to keep a journal. This first body scan is your benchmark. No you haven't got a control group but lets not get carried away.
  • Think of someone, something or somewhere that you enjoy. Smile. Voice your like, saying something like "I like xxx", whatever xxx is. You've just lit up areas in the left front portion of your brain. (yes I am being simplistic here. In truth anything we do uses a number of areas of our brain but predominantly the activity is here.). Buddhists might complain that by focusing on a conditioned like we are only strengthening an arbitrary attachment. It is not the aim of this step to untangle you from your attachments and aversions, only to shift you into left front of brain thinking. Facial expressions, vocalizations (including chants and affirmations) or considering the meaning of something will all get you to the left, touching your logical and often more positive side. You need the right side too but many people get trapped there and we are laying down a neural pathway to help us to switch.
  • Scan your body for any changes.
  • Now imagine someone you know and like reasonably well but someone who is also doing it tough (you can try this step with strangers and people you don't like later but lets take baby steps first). Take a moment to consider this person; their habits of response to life, their struggles, their frustrations, their pain and suffering. Imagine yourself as this person, living their life. What does it feel like. How do you feel about them now? Imagine you are sending that person all the care and attention you are feeling right now? How do you feel in your mind, your chest, your belly?
  • Do a quick body scan. Note any changes.
  • If this last step has left you feeling sad repeat the smile step we started with.
  • Now think of someone you greatly admire. Someone who has helped you in your life. Imagine them in as much detail as you can and imagine you are sending them gratitude for how they helped you. Even if they are no longer living. If you wish to take this further you can imagine being them, thinking like them, having their wisdom and skills. What does that feel like?
  • Do a quick body scan. Note any changes.
  • Become aware of your breath. If you are feeling dull and sleepy give slightly more focus to your in breath. If you are feeling agitated give slightly more focus to your out breath. Just be with your breathing. If the mind drifts into thinking about other things that's fine, just gently bring it back to the breath. Do this for a couple of minutes. Don't berate yourself if your mind has drifted often. It will but it will get easier. When you become proficient at this step you can watch the mind itself, watching the thoughts, like clouds, drifting through a blue sky.
  • Bring your awareness back to your body and scan it.
  • To finish off we will use a visualization that connects us with the four elements as a way of naturally moving into Dzogchen (still, silent and spacious state of mind). For this one close your eyes fully. Imagine yourself on a high mountain plateau. There's a stiff but refreshing breeze blowing. It's blowing away all the obstacles and impediments in your life. Feel the wind. Be the wind. Be free. Give thanks for that. Come back to your self and go to the lake that's in front of you. Take a plunge in its cleansing waters. Feel all your old habits and pains washing away. Feel how the water surrounds you and nourishes you. Each cell of your being is filled with water. Be glad of that. Feel the water. Be the water. Feel loved and nurtured. Return your awareness to yourself. You've built a small fire to dry off in front of. Feel its warmth penetrating your body, into your very bones. Watch its magical flames. Give thanks for its light. Feel the fire. Be the fire. Be warmed and inspired. Awaken to a spark of joy within your solar plexus. Return your awareness to the body. Become aware of the ground you are sitting on. A mountain that has its roots all the way into the earth. Immovable, solid, stable, supporting you, grounding you. Feel the earth. Be the earth. Feel its still bulwark of strength. Give thanks for that. Return your awareness to your body. Remembering the immovable still strength of the mountain visualize that same stillness within you. Or maybe you focus on your spine, straight and strong like some ancient oak tree. Feel that stillness. Be that stillness. Experience that. Keeping that awareness of stillness focus on your throat. The space in your throat. It's like a vast cavern, deep in the ground of your being. Still, quiet. There's a warm red glow. Experience the silence there. Be the silence. Staying connected with the preceding stillness and silence move your focus to an imaginary space in your heart. Not your physical heart but the sacred heart which you can visualize in the area of your sternum. That bone that divides your ribs. Maybe about four finger widths, more or less, from the top of the sternum will be about the right place. Imagine a cavity under that. For Tibetans that is where your mind resides. Imagine it as a vast clear blue desert sky. Open. Spacious. Empty. Observe that space as if you were looking at a clear blue sky. Connect with that. Be that. As you watch it ask yourself where the mind is that is looking at it. The more you look for that mind all you find is more spaciousness. More emptiness. Spaciousness observing spaciousness. Awareness of awareness. Primordial mind. Experienced dzogchen practitioners will go beyond this to touch the limitless light and love, joy and unconditional acceptance that resides within that space but for now that is enough. For more about this read Tenzin Wangyal's Awakening the luminous mind
  • To finish off you may like to strengthen the neural pathways that are associated with compassion and love by making a wish. For example wishing for the happiness of all sentient beings (humans, dolphins, whales etc and yourself included).
  • Return your awareness to your body and do a scan of your feelings and sensations. Has the mind gym changed anything for you. Make some notes. If you've found it beneficial you might wish to put together your own mind gym and run your mind through it once or twice a day. If you truly want to rewire your brain remember your gym practice needs to be consistent and often.
It all takes time but so does going to a gym for the body. Mind fitness is just as important as body fitness. The ancient mystics knew the two went together.

I didn't include concentration meditation in the above because for beginners the breath as the object is probably enough for most. Experienced meditators who've gotten used to following the breath can do an extra step if they wish, focusing on other objects, something you might place in front of yourself like a candle, a statue or a picture. Or you could visualize and object. This is concentration meditation. It hones the mind's ability to be attentive. Experienced practitioners may also wish to include a step of reflection, using their self as the object of the meditation. Take a moment to consider your ingrained habits of response (both good and bad), your opinions and beliefs, the labels you apply to yourself. They are a product of a lifetime, your upbringing, peer group pressure, your culture, your humanity, your education. How do you label yourself? What is your brand image? Have you ever dared to ask someone else if they see you this way? What would happen if you got alzheimers and lost all your memories or a stroke and your personality and ability to do things you considered you were good at changed over night. What would your self be then? Changeable or unchangeable. Really, do you want to be limited, indeed imprisoned inside what you consider your self to be or would you rather connect with that in you which is infinite, unbounded and connected to all...to what is all. But that is going down the rabbit hole. 

There are lots of books out there on meditation and neuroscience. There are also free online courses such as those on Coursera: 
These are mostly from the buddhist perspective but you will find that other Indian traditions use many of the same techniques. You may wish to explore the non-dualist traditions of Advaita, Ekhart Tolle, Adyashanti etc. Don't be limited by what I have written here. No limits. No labels. You are infinite.



    Sunday, July 26, 2015

    Compassion as a healing tool

    I've been doing the year long free course on soul retrieval that the Ligmincha Institute has been offering in 2015 https://www.ligminchalearning.com/.

    The early parts were about getting to know the elements and how they relate to us and the world around us. I'd found that connecting with the elements within the spaciousness, silence and stillness that the practice teaches to be very powerful. One thing I had particularly noticed was an enhanced sense of smell. I looked on the web to see if the senses had any elemental correspondences. Going by http://www.thewhitegoddess.co.uk/the_elements/tables_of_correspondences/the_elements_and_their_correspondences.asp the sense of smell seems to be connected with the element of water. In the tibetan tradition taught by the Ligmincha Institute the element of water is equated with home and comfort. A place to rest and feel safe. Since I have always sought out water, either for a swim or a bath, when stressed this came as no surprise.

    This month, July, the course is dealing with relationship - to self and others and expanding the practice to include an awareness of the suffering and striving of those we have particularly challenging relationships with. That awareness grows compassion and becomes a powerful way to heal. I had been feeling particularly at odds with myself due to the ill health of a significant other. Yes I know I shouldn't but I had been blaming myself. Surely I could have done more to prevent it, cared more, loved more, prevented more. I guess I'd been peeved at my own helplessness in the situation and that had made me angry with myself. Doing the practice that went with this month's teaching I chose to focus on my relationship with myself as my first relationship to repair. I first used the prescribed breathing and visualization to center myself. Becoming clearer and more open. From there I went into the awareness of stillness, silence and spaciousness and rested in it. I let myself become aware of all I'd been feeling (my relationship with my self), without judging or engaging with it. A warmth washed through me, a releasing of sorts that left me at peace with myself. I had done my best, as we all do our best, within the day to day conditions and context we live in. If I want to support greater healing in those I love then I need a whole and healthy relationship with myself AND them. Knowing we are all doing the best that we can. Letting that understanding and the compassion that flows from it send healing energy towards them and the world that is the context for their own dis-ease.

    Wednesday, March 11, 2015

    Sacred Space: The Practice of Inner Stillness Album

    It would come as no great surprise to readers of this blog that I am a great fan of Tenzin Wangyal's books and other material. Yet I would not see myself as a Buddhist or indeed a Bon practitioner. I prefer to take my wisdom where I find it and feel no obligation to filter it to just one "brand", pagan, secular, religious or otherwise. I do however entwine many of Tenzin Wangyal's meditations, philosophy and body yoga with my own practices. Previously he has produced meditative CDs attached to books such as "Tibetan Sound Healing" and "Awakening The Luminous Mind: Tibetan Meditation for Inner Peace and Joy" but this is the first issued as a stand alone. It builds nicely on his earlier work and I think it is even an improvement in certain aspects. The hemi-sync binaural background is deeply relaxing. He leaves ample space/intervals in the meditation for you to sink deeply into what he is asking you to do. It is also a version you can recommend to your staunchly secular friends as it is jargon free and the dedication at the end is only in English. Personally I enjoy hearing the Tibetan language used in prayer and chant. It has a power and resonance that is awesome. I often listen to Tibetan Bon chanting even if I do not understand a word of it. But some may find the use of a language they don't understand alienating so I think the English dedication at the end in this one will broaden this CD's appeal.

    The essence of the meditation is still that same freeing connection with inner space, stillness and silence that you will find in his other works. I would recommend them all as they overlap in their wisdom.

    Given the prohibitive postal charges between the US and Australia I obtained my copy as a digital download direct from the Hemi-Sync online shop. http://shop.hemi-sync.com/products/1424-Sacred-Space-The-Practice-of-Inner-Stillness-Album/#.VP_Ppo5L7EY

    Monday, March 17, 2014

    The power of "One Mind" to create

    The positive thinking movement tells us that we have the power to create and change our reality.  Choosing to be positive is within our individual power to do. By changing how we react to people events and life in general, changing the language we use to speak and thing about ourselves and others and simply choosing to be happy anyway can bring profound changes into our individual lives. There's a catch though. Its relative power is often limited or derailed by our subconscious insecurities, aversions and desires/attachements.

    clearing our subconscious of its dross AND practicing a positive outlook takes us further. Techniques like relaxation, breathing techniques, yogic chakra releases, visualisation, acts of faith and forgiveness can all help with the letting go.

    But the above will still only fix you. How do we fix the wider problems of the world. The violence, sickness, greed and misery that simply shouldn't have to be. We feel helpless in our individual capacity to bring about change. Prayers or focused intent can be directed at our external environment but again the affect is limited. The fact is you are one individual against the global consensus reality waiting for a tipping point number of people to believe the same as you before the global healing you wish for can spread like a benevolent virus embracing the world. So what to do?

    We need to go beyond the individual. All of the above is worthwhile but something more is required for a truly global fix.

    Gnostic traditions, those traditions based on direct experience, state that we live in an illusion that is largely of our own collective making. What we experience is governed by the limits of our biological capabilities and our programmed responses. We see and feel what we expect to see and feel. We see a world where we are separate from other individuals, other beings and the very earth beneath our feet. Conceptually at least we know this isn't true. Quantum science is no longer new. It's been telling us for some time now that the structure of the universe is not what we perceive. Take just one atom of one cell of your being. It's mostly just a lot of space with a few particles moving within it around a central core but the exact location of any particle can only be given in terms of probability. Everything else is space. We perceive a hard touchable surface to our skin. It keeps rain, leaves blown on the gusts of wind and anything else from passing into our body, viruses aside. But the surface is mostly space.

    Space is the one boundless thing that truly exists in our dimension in our universe. Is it any wonder then that Tibetan's spend time staring at clear blue skies our finding their own inner skies inside. Space is a metaphor for all that is infinite, beyond naming or controlling.

    Using the metaphor of space we can using our imagination to connect with our idea of it. You can enhance this practice with visualization, sound and breathing. Imagine the space that exists in the deep cavities of your body: your mind, your throat, your heart and abdomen. Imagine and rest in that space. Just sit with it without judging it. Explore within it. Explore the mind that is looking at it. Feeling the boundless nothing. And yet as we deepen the practice we do indeed find something there: a lightness, stillness, a vast silence. Going outside of ourselves we can imagine a connection to the space around us, space that is the glue that connects us with everything. We realise there is no difference between the inner and the outer space. We realise that each individual thing is within that space. As we connect with the space more and more we realise that the things are creations existing within the space. Our focus has shifted from the individual ego to the whole, to what Larry Dossey calls the 'One Mind'.

    Connection with one-mindedness has profound consequences for how we see ourselves and act within the world. We come to see the individual bits of the relative world as temporary constructions. That is not to devalue those constructions but it does mean we start to see them as less concrete. We realise the relative is as it is. It in itself doesn't need fixing. What needs fixing is our connection with the one-mind. And it is from this perspective that everything resolves itself. For there is only one being. The only thing that is need to 'fix the world' is to reawaken to the one-mind and realise that there is only boundness light, love and joy and that what your individual ego in the relative world sought to fix was only its own creation.

    Saturday, May 18, 2013

    Perceiving high frequency sounds and other signs of a lifting of the veil of separateness that has been between our egoistic relative self and the absolute

    Reading around the web of late I'm not the only one to have been perceiving high frequency sounds and other signs of a lifting of the veil of separateness that has been between our egoistic relative self and the absolute.

    I thought at first I might have been getting tinnitus but the sound is directly influenced by my thoughts and meditation. When my thoughts are at their most positive or my meditations take me into emptiness it increases in amplitude. But apparently others are experiencing it, refer 8b: http://www.in5d.com/spiritual-awakening-quiz.html in an article called "How many of these 51 syptoms of spiritual awakening do you have?" I've also noticed I can perceive solar storms, a sensation in the head that leaves it feeling "full", like there is a lot of static. Then there is the fact that my meditations have been leading to work on my solar plexus. Refer:http://www.in5d.com/ascension-symptoms-body-vibrations.html. A few days ago I came across this youtube video on how to "See energy in the air": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k3HvpLz0zOo .  He talks about going into a dimly lit room and learn to perceive the pixelation that's there if you look for it.  I'd come across this concept before from writings of a Toltic or South American shaman but can't remember who. The shaman said that if you stared at a point in space long enough, without blinking, it would become pixilated and that if you did this with objects they would become transparent. I tried this and it's hard not to blink but it and I did start to see the pixel effect.  I am mindful also that there are accounts of people with PSI seeing through objects to what's on the other side.  I don't know if this is related to the above effect or just their remote viewing ability.

    Anyway... Having mused on all this the thought came to me that I might have also seen this effect sometime when I meditated.  I closed my eyes and told myself to just observe whatever was there without putting any judgements on it or any expectations of what it might look like. Slowly I became aware of a speckling.  As I watched it I seemed to be pulled into a center that was more finely pixelated, so fine it looked like silver but when I observed it closely it was clear it was a fine pattern of white and black dots and it was swirling.  It was a vortex pulling me in. Unfortunately an interruption ended that session.  When I came back to exploring I found it again but have not yet dwelled on it long.  I became aware of something else, this static/pixel pattern was different if I focused on the right or left side of my head.  The left was coarser grained, the right finer.  Something seemed amiss about this and I felt the need to bring them into some kind of harmony or integration.  I decide that one way I can work on this is spend time in both sides, maybe alternating between them.  Something like pranayama, alternate nostril breathing or maybe that's something that could be used in conjunction with this perceiving.  I also want to go deeper into that central vortex.  And the "white noise" sound - well that increases when I do this and there is a very strong sensation of opening or activity in the top of the head (the crown chakra).  Early days yet, still exploring, observing and self-monitoring for any positive or negative effects.  So far it all seems very positive.

    Going back to the youtube video I mentioned I have to wonder if what I'm perceiving is the absolute consciousness that we've been separated from for the last six thousand years or so.







    Monday, March 4, 2013

    Thursday, January 24, 2013

    When aversion rears its ugly head and all your equanimity goes out the window

    Mostly we like what we are good at or praised for and we hat what we do badly or are criticized for.  It's how the ego protects itself and how we are conditioned and enmeshed within the world.

    For me, as a child everyone went "oo" and "ah" at my drawings so I liked art and thought about being an art teacher one day, until I got to senior high school, Australia's year 11 & 12, and they told me I wasn't avantgarde enough to go on to art school. Geography was doomed because the teacher took a dislike to me or maybe it was just all those history dates and economic production stats yet my interest in the world survived.  My French teacher, said I'd never be good at languages - Ha! Proved her wrong! School sport meant being out in the cold and wet, running around until my childhood asthma played up, wearing hideous sports clothes and trying to vault something way to high for me in what seemed to be and old barn.  I always got picked last for any team game during the compulsory physical education classes.  I ended up hating sport, couldn't see what others saw in it and was the only girl in the whole school that seemed to be exempt from being on an after school team.

    And so it goes on through life.  Pursuing the line of least resistance and greatest rewards to the ego with only a few genuine interests, like my love of languages, persisting due to bloody mindedness and love.

    It's exactly that level of determination (bloody-mindedness and love) that you need to free yourself from this revolving mouse wheel of carrot and stick, aversion and attachment conditioning.

    The last year or so has been pretty kind to me. These days I take responsibility for creating my own reality so when something I don't like comes my way I have to assume that I at some level I wanted to test myself and strengthen my skills (in this case my equanimity and ability to abide calmly) in the fire of experience.  However, being human my initial inclination is usually "how can I avoid it?" and probably the next thought after that "why me?" followed by emotions of anger and helplessness (not unlike going through the stages of grieving but lower on the Richter scale). However, negative emotions are pretty quick to hurt not only those around us but also ourselves.  Plus I'm sure a negative mindset is some kind of cosmic magnet that draws in more of its like. So...
    • Breathe out! Release!
    • Ask yourself what have you truly got control over.  Yes I create my interpretation of the world and draw certain events and people to me through my thoughts and action but ultimately I'm the only one who can truly manage my internal state. So the answer to that question is "me". Sometimes it's better to just say that the external world is what it is, not as a statement of helplessness but as a statement of release. There are always variable you can tinker with but when it comes down to it it is a co-created reality that you're either love, hate or are neutral about.
    • As Tenzin Wangyal says, isn't it better to be happy of no reason than to rely on external conditions.
    • The only way not to project your temporary state of negativity on to others is to become aware of it.  Not fostering it, not trying to suppress it, not judging it... just being aware of it.
    • Once you're aware of your current state start to become aware of everything else around you.  become aware of the space around you.  Space is immutable, vast, all pervading and eternal. It's a refuge.  As you connect to that refuge your focus on your current state lessens, it starts to dissolve into that space. If you work with this a bit you become aware that your vision of doom was a creation of your mind and it too is empty.  What you were experience was a collection of past memories of a similar event, situation of person neatly packaged in all its related, conditioned aversions and attachments   It was that "vision of mind" that was pressing the "DefCon 1" flight and fight response. this understanding of the vision of mind gives you a bit of perspective. From there you can either use deeper meditation techniques such as Dzogchen and/or make a logical, clear-head assessment of what you are trying to avoid.  Is it going to kill you, harm you or others? If not it's probably not the end of the world, not as bad as your "vision of mind" would have you believe. Do a risk assessment of the problems and opportunities involved in pursuing an avoidance strategy. Ask yourself if you're willing to take up the challenge of abiding in your reclaimed calmness and facing what you seek to avoid? Know that whatever you decide is the right decision for you at that point in time but only make decisions once you've regained your equilibrium and clarity. Meditate and reflect as often as you need.
    • Remember that for everything you dislike there is some, possibly weird, person out there that likes it.  There are also a lot of others that feel the same way in the same situations so don't judge yourself for the way you feel.
    • Treating yourself with a hot bath or chocolate helps in the short term but make sure you do it when times are good too otherwise it could just become another way to condition you.
    • Support the above with expert advice on what herbs, mood altering foods or other medications may help lessen the conditioned response. Address any underlying issues: nutritional deficiencies, hormonal imbalances, phobias, inferiority complexes or trauma.
    • Skillfulness, knowledge and your network of people are always vital. Make sure the people who are important to you know you have an issue and importantly reassure them that they are not the cause of it, or at the very least not responsible for your reaction, that their support is welcome and that you're doing what's necessary to get back on track. Be willing to receive their compassion and empathy and hear their stories too. Since we tend to attract like minded people to our company they may have similar aversions and attachments they've had to face.
    • Breathe.  Any deep breathing, light exercise that requires breathing or connected breath work.  I like pranayama and the breathing involved in Tibetan yoga and Tai Chi to clear my energy channels and reground myself.